but im not. like always -_- this is irritating & taking a toll on me..
i dont know why i got mad when you told me that on the fone. i dont even know how to explain it. like yay im happy for you, but then again, that really was a wtfuck moment? i mean i know its none of my business anyway. but i dont know. its really affecting me. and when you told me bout how you changed? i support you either way in your decisions, but i dont know. i rlly dont know. fuck it, whatever. whatever happens happens. i dont even know why the fuck im trippin. ugh.
xoxo, your tiger.
You run the fuck after her and pour your heart out on the pavement. You have to tell her all the reasons you love her, and you gotta mean every word of it. You better kiss her like you’ve never kissed her before and hold her in your arms like you’re protecting the world, because she is your world. Fight for her. Don’t let her go. Because once she walks out on you, there’ll be nothing more you can do. And let me tell you boy, you will regret it.
thass how i feel. i mean i know its 9/11 and everyone is going against building a mosque where ground zero is,but cmon seriously? NOT ALL MUSLIM’S ARE TERRORIST. we dont mean to cause harm. the true muslims, the one who pray to god and know our religion. not the ones who be bombing shit. just becus a couple muslims bombed something, doesnt mean you need to go against ALL of us. how would you feel if we told you you cant build a church somewhere? how would you feel if we burned all your bibles? thass really mean isnt it? thass rude as fuck too. whether its part of our freeedom of speech or not, its not ethical. i swear, i almost cried when i found out the fuckers wanted to burn the Quran. thass OUR bible. god wrote his words in that book for US. just like you have your own. i hate how so many people disrespect us like were some kind of alien or animal. what the fuck is wrong with you people.
everythings just a big mess. ive lost some of the most important people. ive been really irritated like 24/7, plus, school is getting hard. and its only like the 3rd week. the reason why i tumble this is because some people just get tired of complaining and telling their problems to others so thass why i blog. so whoever cares can read this. okay so
1)vball has been so tiring. the coach gets on my nerves alot and i mess up alot which irritates the fuck outta me. like i cant do that ina game? she tries to be funny but she aint. and on top of that, when we run, my leg gets numb as fuck cus i have a stress fracture so it hurts like a bitch. hopefully, the squad can become a family.
2)i have a feeling im going to slowly fall behind in school. i feel it arready. chem is a cool class, but i dont understand anything. science has never been my subject. and in math, at least damariae can help me since hes sucha math whiz.
3)its like at the end of the day, when everything is said and done, and people go their separate ways, i just look over my shoulder and you know whos there? josephine. she always has. i never realized how much it meant to me to have my girls always by my side. cus when all else fails, my girls can always bring a smile on my face. i just really want to thank josie, and my other girls who never left my side. KIMBERLY, even though we dont rlly see each other at school or around the hallways n stuff, you’ll always be my GF. the girl who i can always be stupid with cus were like dumb & dumber. i love you babygirl.
4)i never have time for anything. since i have to give my shots and alla that, its so time consuming. i come home, and im tired as fuck. all i wanna do is sleep. but no, i cant. im not allowed to skip meals. and plus, i have hw like every fucken day. and the teachers are so annoying to me i swear. cept for some.
5)YOU. i dont even know anymore dude, forreals…. i dont know. i dont even know if im happy. its like were okay, then 1 minute later your walking away mad for some little shit. im OBVIOUSLY not doing the things i used to do becus i dont like it anymore. i remember when i used to be so fucken happy. now, its arguments arguments arguments. you KNOW i get mad and frustrated easily and i get hella defensive about things, and when i do, you get mad at me back? like seriously. im your gf, not your mother. thass how i HONESTLY feel. i bet that snitch is gonna tell you about this post too, BUT GO RIGHT AHEAD. becus we can never talk things out anyway. cus when i tell you how i feel or what i dont like, then you say some shit like wtf go ahead and do it then etc etc etc. im so confused on what i want and what i need and whats best for me. OH, AND YOU KNOW WHAT IRRITATES ME THE MOST? how just becus i havent been texting you lately, BECUS I JUST NEEDA LIL SPACE, you decide to text my sister instead? like seriouosly? thass SO FUCKEN DISRESPECTFUL. fuck that gets me hella mad. like okay if you say hi wsup thass fine. but your like goodnight i love you etc etc. your so pretty ETC ETC ETC. UGH. and i know how to take care of myself and what im supposed to eat and not eat, but yet when i tell you i gotta count carbs and estimate stuff, you always got something smart to say like YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT MY SITUATION. you dont arright? im so fucken heated with you sometimes i fucken swear.
IM SO FUCKEN DONE WITH PUTTING STRESS ON MYSELF. but it seems like i can NEVER get a break..